Silent Night

Even though I'm a huge fan of the song, "Silent Night," what I really love is a silent morning. I am having such a moment right now. Since my furry little sidekick can't tell the difference between a weekday morning and a weekend morning, I have been up since 5:45. Would I love to sleep until 6:30, possibly 7? Sure. But, as I sit here, Christmas tree lit up, coffee in hand, half of an asiago cheese bagel toasty and warm and ready to eat (there was only one left, and I took the bottom half, leaving the top for John. If that's not love, I don't know what is), dog curled up next to me--asleep already--I can honestly say I'm reveling in the silence.

Don't get me wrong. I love the company of others--chatting is my favorite past time--but, sometimes not having to say anything is kind of nice. It gives me a minute to reflect on things like how blessed I am, how filled with gratitude I am to have this life, even in the midst of some trying situations that are threatening to undermine my peace of mind.

Anyone who knows me well knows I don't exactly "sleep in heavenly peace." I have a industrial-strength noise machine blaring on close to full volume to drown out the incessant snoring of my husband who does sleep in heavenly peace. Every night. As soon as his head hits the pillow.

But, these silent mornings. They are all mine.

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